Changes Change Changed

So. Yea.

I’m at Limkokwing now, have been here for a month. Have not been online properly for a month too. I just got my internet up at my uncle’s place, now I’m very guilty, he got Streamyx for me and I’m planning to move out soon, 2 weeks from now hopefully, to a little town called Seri Kembangan near campus. Rental for the entire unit is.. RM350 per month! My friends’ hostel rooms are at RM400. Wheeeee

My University friends are little pieces of diamond. I’m now with them 24/7 argh. Can’t believe how easily they accepted me into their group, just can’t. Gah! Sometimes I just want to give them a very largely big hug.  If I had to leave Limkokwing for local Uni, I’d.. I’d cry. Really cry.

I’m so different now, I realise. My attitude towards life, work, love(?), friends is different from 2 months ago.

Ok Ok, I shall quit stalling.. Sheesh (at Jing)

So there is this one guy I’m particularly close to in the group. His name is Kenny. He’s freakishly tall. With us, it’s always 2 steps forward 1 step leap step back.

Anyways… I have loads of work to do. Miss you all!! Later

I can’t sleep.

Gah X.x I tried to sleep. 2 hours ago. Tak boleh laaaa… I’m wasting time. I can’t study either. Me brain’s on life support. So Imma surf~~

12.19am

A hsien! A hsien! My kingdom for a hsien!

Which work of Shakespeare was the original quote from?

12.25am
I decided to clickity for a bit more fun XD. I saw Lyn online, so I gave her the link, she got “Nay, faith, let me not play a Lyn; I have a beard coming” LMAO

He that sleeps feels not the hsien

Which work of Shakespeare was the original quote from?

Yes indeed, this a sign!!

12.38

The sleep doth protest too much, methinks.

or not…

1.02am

Star Wars Horoscope for Scorpio

You are a powerful character. You tend to be possessive and lusty – which explains your greedy nature. You feel threatened when people try to order you around or control you. You are prone to suspicion and jealousy – but your resilience and passion get you what you want.Star wars character you are most like: Han Solo

What Is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

melikey!! *drools* XD

1.11am

You Are 30% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

MWAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Ee!~ I feel sleepy! Sleeepy!! Whee~

And finally, 1.22am

Why can’t you log out of life?

Really la.. What’s the point? I’m going to fail STPM anyways, I might as well chuck everything aside and just party with everyone else.
People don’t understand why I say F6′s tough, to most of them, STP’s just another public exam. Well… unless you did A levels, you have NO opinion. Maybe because it IS a public exam that I didn not study for a whole year.
Now it’s down to 42 days. And failed basically everything.
It’s cool to have friends who go to Cambridge, Imperial, or, are capable of hoping for an Ivy. I can’t even envy them.
I guess this is when one feels lowest.
When the reality of one’s insignificance is most…

Where does one find the strength?

Sin-Fen ought to be proud!

BL is not evil.

http://games.tom.com/gamepic/3663_1.html

Until I died by laughter.

Shocking right? Ask Lyn what my initial reaction was. XD

P.S. all three are guys

It’s horrific. Nurin or not Nurin.

Hey ho! Has been some time since I’ve updated, not because my life has been devoid of anything worth posting, (ok, maybe that too) well, I just had my trials.
Math bombed again. Worse than the last time too. Oh well, if I give up now, I’m just another farking loser no? Chemistry saw some improvement. Not stellar, but i think I passed. I hope.
The other 2′s pretty much screwed too. You know how they say that life’s just another process and that we live to learn and all that philosophical mumbo jumbo? Pfft.

Perhaps there is a limit to one’s diffidence. Without applying, I’ve gone into some sort of meditative fatalistic optimism. Or maybe I’m just jaded. I know it must not make much sense to you, I’m not much wiser myself. Right now, what keeps me going is the fact that my performance at the actual exam can not be any worse than my current state. In a way, I’ve gone into muted desperation. Or a silent and indolent mutiny.
Something horrible happened at school today. A buddy of mine is currently not speaking to me. There was a conflict of character, and all I wanted was to do just forget about the episode. But she was not. It was not what she did that annoyed me most (I had anticipated her involvement in the “problem”) but how her stubborn conviction to her actions that did. I’m not going into details here, for obvious reasons, all I can say is that failure to empathise is not too promising if one plans to function in a society. Of course, I’m not entirely blameless. Incensed by her reactions, I got a little carried away with my rants. I’ve ranted to 3 people since morning.
What ties her and myself together is school. Outside schooling, tuition and study group hours, we maintain no contact except for the occasioanal academic sms. It does not bother me, there are many types of friends. I for one, do not plan to get too chummy with my future colleagues, it just dulls life. She has always been a very good school buddy. And still is. But just because we’d avoid each other in public, for our ideals are too different and we would not want to marr our impressions of one another, does not mean that we aren’t true friends.
Friendship based on circumstances are most fragile. I was super tight with 2 girls at the “No Baths For Five Days” Camp. We did everything together. We shared the every pain, every joy, every sweat, every muck the camp had to offer. After the camp, we just went our own ways. Of course they’ll remain in me forever, in a way my bandmates are, in a way that even my resident best buds aren’t. But that’s just.. it.

p.s. I did not proof read this ^^ and I’m too busy to XD so yea, if it’s confusing or if it’s badly written (more so than usual anyways), excuse me.

Beautiful weather

Mmm, nice weather we have of late, no? The cool breeze and the rain has such an soporific effect. When I step out on the balcony, breeze sweeps all my worries away, leaving me calm and at peace. Bye bye stress!

I’m a bitch. I’ve been told that many times in the last few weeks, and I can’t help but agree. Proud of it, more like. Did you know that not many people are born with natural all-around bitchiness? Yes, it’s true! The rest of the bitch population are momentary bitches, and if you think for a moment that being a bitch is easy, ho ho! You are sorely mistaken!

We bitches have to generate insults, snide remarks, withering looks, haughty-holier-than-thou airs, all the while maintaining our image as alpha female, and not stoop to the level of the crazed bimbo. It’s an art to be a bitch, and the highest compliment to a bitch is to be told so. Oh, and have you noticed that no one really hates bitches? They may hate the arrogant bitch, the cold-hearted bitch, the bitchy bitch, but not the bitch. The others are merely variants of bitch.
I suspect that there’s at least a little bitch in all of us, and sometimes, she might just save our butts. Therefore grooming the inner bitches should be a mandatory self-preservation precaution.

What propelled me to update today is not because I had a seemingly sudden appreciation for my bitch, rather, it’s Avril Lavigne.

Yes, that whiny woman with legions of tween fans all over the globe. The American music industry has stopped producing quality artistes for quite some time now, but AL is one of their best low. She’s tagged as a multi-talent, she sings(croak!), she writes(how sure are you?), she plays the guitar(so…?), she looks good on magazines(ah, yes the ultimate marketing tool) , she’s all about girl power(so much like PCD, no?), she’s PUNK!(yea, as punk as my mum) Her music, in my opinion, is immature(Hey! Hey! You! You! Please let me fark you!), discriminatory(she has a decided thing against preps =.=) and most of them, rather shallow. To be fair, there are one or two saving graces, like I miss you or something. But her overall image and music does not convince me one bit that her biggest concern is not the size of her bank account.

I don’t know what inspired me to Yahoo for reviews for her album, I was just looking for entertainment to ease my stress a little. Honest, raw reviews, not reviews by the people that own music stores. Oh, I revel in all the Avril bashingness! My favourite line: I’m a strong believer in the idea that you can’t sell out if you were a poser to begin with.

I still (till the day I R.I.P, I wouldn’t understand why) have friends who like AL. But I guess, not everyone’s a bitch enough to spot the fake bitch (her video for Girlfriend is both tasteless and mean). Has anyone forgotten that’s she’s 23? Has she forgotten? And married? I was hoping that marriage would prop her into the world of mature adults. So far, it has been a letdown. Not to mention her army of young, impressionable fans, the way she portrays and treats so-called “uncool” people is extremely irresponsible. I wonder how she sleeps at night. Probably with her bank statements as pillow stuffing.

I’m going off now (yea right, am too lazy to continue typing) Ciao!

Ah, holidays~

Woohoo! Time to kick back, relax, and get asomething-something *wink*!

Yeah, right.

When Jing’s made it known that she’s through to Cambridge (once again, Confuckinglations!!!), we started kicking around celebratory plans. Elated as I was, I must say some bit of me dreaded the actual planning. Come on, I barely know the people we’re about to invite! If it were the Jane sort, I’d do paintball (who doesn’t like a bit of pain? Colourful ones too ^^) and inevitably something not so innocent =.= , if it were my schoolmates, karaoke-ing (read: I do not karaoke) . But… a bunch of super high-achievers who’d moan and wail at a 78%?! I had no farking idea. After (too) much discussion, we settled for… a nice tea party on a Saturday. How exhilarating. Which Saturday? Some Saturday we manage to liberate ourselves from tuition and mothers’ chokeholds. And for some reason, I seem to doubt it’ll ever happen. Gah.

Unpleasant stuff aside, I’m rather glad that I’m still in love with the idea of being an architect. I’ve done some (pfft. if you believe I’d pass the chance to park at the pc) research and came to the following conclusions. Taylors: No way, I’d have to waste a year on foundation. USCI: Not accredited. Limkokwing: I’d be under too much peer-pressure to actually study. Eqautor: Urm, not too reputable, is it? Plus, it’s Penang-based.

If anyone knows of anybody doing architecture abroad, poke me! ^_^